The Person--Behind The Smile

Dear Bloggers,,


Theres this girl and every time i see her i wave and she smiles back, everyday, every time, without fail. What does her smile mean?? Is she really as happy as she appears. She is the kind of girl who always asks others how their day was,, she is the person you could confide to and someone who you could share your deepest secrets without judgement. Behind her back people always say how they want to be like her.. "she never has a bad day".."if i ever saw her cry i would cry too". People only saw the mask that she wanted people to see.. behind closed doors she was different. She never smiled she never laughed,, she never lived her life she only existed.. thoughts danced in her head..objects brushed against her wrists. If only someone truly knew her,, if they only knew the truth. Every morning as she sat at her desk she would do the same routine she did every morning. Pull out her makeup bag and begin to paint a portrait that everyone would approve of,, FIRST she would put her concealer under her eyes,, bags that she got because she couldn't sleep at night, thinking about the problems people shared with her. SECOND she would put her foundation on to cover up all her pimples which were caused by the deadly smoke she inhaled just to get high every night to pass the time that she spent alone,, thinking. THIRD was her mascara,, to cover up her swollen eyes from crying about her parents fighting last night. FOURTH she pulls out that bright blue nail polish to paint her nails to cover up the discoloration on her fingers that she got by forcing herself to throw up last night's meal. LASTLY,, she puts her lipstick on to paint a smile that will greet everyone as she walks past them. Do you know the person behind the smile.. have you ever stopped to ask how they were doing? Don't be tricked by their smile because like makeup it just covers up."Each day in our nation there are an average of over 5,400 attempts by young people grades 7-12". "Four out of Five teens who attempt suicide have given clear warning signs".

http://jasonfoundation.com/prp/facts/youth-suicide-statistics/

I Don't Post On Social Media So Many People Will Like It-- I Post So That The Jealous People Don't

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So your in bed and can't fall asleep, what to do so you scroll down Instagram-- who the heck does she think she is! You shout in your head as your eyes lay upon the picture.. The annoying girl you see all the time in school, there she is at a party with all the hot guys in school and she looks like she is having so much fun-- then as you calm your thoughts you look down to see how many people liked her photo.. just as you thought 145likes-- as the madness turns to sadness you go to your profile and see how many likes your last photo had..12likes,, now every time you post you makes sure that your photo has more than 20 likes if not you delete it..So i ask the question why do you post on social media? is it because you like to see how many likes you get on a picture.. or is it because you don't have a life but like to appear to others like you do? When talking to people most people will look many times to verify that they had over ten likes on their photo or status update.. thats RIDICULOUS isn't it! Well I'm here to tell you why i post things on social media and it isn't the reasons that i stated early, its because i don't care about who likes the photo but i care about the jealous people who don't like it. they stare at my photo in hatred, thats the real reason i post. HATERS ARE ALWAYS GOING TO HATE.. but its the haters that make people more successful they push people farther than they ever thought they could ever go. So when people say i don't care what others say about my social media i do it for myself, BULLSHIT you do care and you know it, i do it for the haters they say. But myself, I love jealous people because it reminds me that my life is pretty special. Everyday i find my self complaining about multiple things that i don't like about my life..well if my life is special enough to have someone jealous of it than i have a pretty good life. Posting reminds me of the blessings i have in my life that i am able to do the things i do and have the friends i can do them with. It is very important to remember why you do the things you do then just doing them for no reason.